16 years ago today, my stepfather took his own life.
Needless to say, I knew today wouldn’t be a good day for my Mom, but several other bad things happened and didn’t go her way, one being her phone broke.
She still had a flip phone and she always wanted to keep that one, she never wanted something else as “she wouldn’t understand it”.
Little things like this (her phone breaking) can really throw her off and make her spiral.
Anyways, God turned it into a beautiful blessing.
She called me crying, just sobbing. She didn’t know how this would get better or this would come through, she didn’t understand how her husband could leave her like he did, how he did, by taking his life.
As I was talking her through things tonight (on her new phone my Aunt helped her get today), I surprised her by pushing the “FaceTime” button (she never even used this feature before).
It was all I could do to not break down seeing her so incredibly hurting, truly … beside herself … but my heart exploded knowing that because that old phone broke, now every single day, despite being 9 hours apart, she will get to “see” her 5 grandchildren “live”.
This evening, my Mom officially “met” baby KJ …
My Mom saw and talked to all 7 of us.
She cried more.
She kept saying how this was one of the most amazing things she’d ever done (yes, FaceTime, definitely the little things for someone like my Mom …)
And before we got off, she started to sob again and I asked her what was wrong and she tried to gather her composure and said how beautiful her baby girl was and how she can’t believe I came from her.
It took every thing inside of me to be strong for her, but I’m so grateful that on such a “bad” day, God brought something beautiful from it.
God willing, we’re going to try to brighten her day, everyday, even if it’s only for a couple minutes, to see the kids.
She ended the conversation, “Regan, this turned out to be the best day I’ve had in the last 16 years …”
So grateful that that flip phone finally broke on today of all days.